I Want Something More (#TOTD)

I'm in that point again in my life when I feel like "I would be better off doing something else". When March started I became quite moody, sensitive, and somehow always sad. It went on for a week or two and I even got sick in the mid of it. I've been too stressed, too tired and too fed up with everything that's been happening until I started not giving a care anymore. I don't mean to be negative (again), I just want to share what I've been through, you know, just letting it all out.

About a week ago I started feeling on top once more; I was a bit happier, I've been active with writing articles, attending a lot of tastings and meeting new people, and I've also started dancing again with a few good friends. Don't get me wrong, not all stress was gone but it did help me get through the "dark side" I was facing earlier. It's just always been something I think about, do other people go through the same stages or situations? Am I just over-thinking what's happening? Or am I just not strong or brave enough to don't give a f*ck at all?

You know what I think I need? A good vacay! Just a few stress-free days, away from all that's been bothering me in Macau and finally being content with how I'm living my life. Don't leave me in doubt, if you've ever felt the same way I did then please let me know. I've always wanted to inspire and encourage people (one of the reasons why I started my blog in the first place) and let them know that it's okay to feel a certain way at times. Seems like I'm failing in the whole inspiring part so let me just stay here and continue being a whine baby.

Photo Credits to: Adrian Coronado (@dash_ad)

Pink Sunsets

Only one thing I've learned from this: never blog after work. So I was working morning shifts that time and was loosing a hell lot of blog posts, best thing I could think of was to bring all my blog "stuff" at work and do it after hours.... I was wrong. First of all, it wasn't as cold when I left for work earlier that day but somehow it dropped to 15 degrees at around 5pm. My clothes weren't enough and I didn't want to add layers of scarves or jackets because it just won't match.  Next, I was dead tired. My constipated look was just me trying to say that I'm not up for this sh*t right now. Don't get me wrong, I love blogging, but my job isn't really the easiest. 

I know I've been too whiny about my job but that's just how I feel (bare with me). I don't mean to be all negative today so let's talk about something happier, shall we? .... Uhhh... *thinking deeply*.... Hmmm... Okay, I've got nothing. I'm sorry, I'm writing this while recovering from my sick body and trying to get over the fact that I've done so much mistakes at both my job and Macau Lifestyle (basically my other job) lately. Ugh! I hate feeling like this. Don't you?

I guess there can't always be happy moments. Let's just hope that the sun really does shine after the rain. I mean that poetically and literally because Macau's sky has been so gloomy it's affecting my mentality hard. See you next time... I promise I'll lighten up.

x Varsity Jacket & Dress: H&M // Shoes: Something Borrowed x
Photo Credits to: Adrian Coronado (@dash_ad)